| I just ate a really obscene amount of trail mix. It wasn't even the chocolate covered raisin and almond kind we make at the house, it was some lazy store-bought stuff brought to me at work. I don't know what you would consider an obscene amount, but consider it, and then imagine me eating it. |
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| I bet you didn't know that I still come on here.
Well I don't. But I did.
Have a nice day. |
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"Oh my God. Why do I have to take CARE of all you little f*&#ers?!" (reference to the family. we're sick)
-"mom" Betsy Miller
I love you ma! ; ) |
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| One is for everybody that keeps it all together
two is for the people pleasers who make it better
three is for everybody begging for attention
and here I sit, jack-in-the box waiting for permission
Some use sticks and stones to break the bones of bullies.
Words hurt worse.
Why speak first? On every occasion I keep it real-
Cause these scars don't heal. and we all feel the need to be heard,
I dont beg to be understood, but please respect the word when spoken,
each thought provoken
by the ones twos and threes
it was the word serve, we deserved it all
every member of self, but every tack for the cause
thats understanding but
how it'll make you quiet, it'll make you stand firm
ones and twos go hand in hand in the firey hustle to burn
So here I speak an encouraging word ..
I oughta cut off my hair so my thinking cap fits
Ones and twos? 14 percent. the majority's a three,
some of the voices barely heard over the gasps and screams
let me out or leave me in
we can lose or we can win
I have a voice in addition, but you have to choose to listen
I have occupied my position
none of them paid attention,
now watch me speak freely
and use conversation to free me and feel things
I alone tie your thoughts
Shook hard, so tears falls down
and leave a little thing for scripture for those to hear me now
I wait and powder my cries.
Butterflies seranade my eyes
calling out that beauty. Truly we need it sometimes
mine alone carries wieght. ask not what to do but when and where to.
and just because I don't doesn't mean I'm scared to.
That's where my mind folds back- a demo of a whole lot soon to come
Im renewed with by transform
as I brace myself with the Impact.
I sit here- close my eyes, and wait.
and it fit me like a glove.
One is for everybody that keeps it all together
remember?
two is for the people pleasers who make it better
yeah.
three is for everybody begging for attention
ok.
and here I sit, jack-in-the box waiting for permission
I walk through the shadows, not to choose to please man
four walls in my paper plate, seems like we like them to be bust in
a world with keys to everything
I guess we like being locked in
or locking others out
and some other doubt.
I heard that anythings possible
maybe you should count me in, I wanna be there when the impossible transcends
that's my exact words, I want for them to hover over me.
This is the place before the place, where I'm supposed to be
"strong"-that means alot.
not the ways of man, back to old ways? I'm not.
Being human Im fortunate. of course it is.
Because I won't say yes to anything
Twos do anything to please me
threes do whatever it takes to be seen
I can keep sucking wind
just say when,
my heartbeat gives right there,
and it's not fair to all my friends
jack be nimble and jack be quick like this because he had to.
he had to .
One is for everybody that keeps it all together
and
two is for the people pleasers who make it better
and
three is for everybody begging for attention
and
and here I sit, jack-in-the box waiting for permission
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| I was thinking about deleting my xanga and making a new one. I think instead of snuffleupaguss I will have my name be "IHaveAMotherWhoDoesntLoveMeOrCallMe,SheOnlyLovesXangaAndChickens" I went to lunch with LLL today, she is a lot like my mom. Maybe she will adopt me. Then G will be my brother. That would get interesting. Then I would have to work cattle. and go to political functions. ... hm. Maybe I'll keep my parents. |
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